hah!!!! i am alive!!! had the most emotional packed birthday, well it was unfortunate in so many ways..(my baby got hurt sooo bad...love yah hunny!!!) hmmmm....bt in seriousness of it all..i would just want to say a few things...*ehem*
before everything happened, we had the most amazing night, singin, laughin eatin drinkin and all that jazz...and it was a day before my birthday so we were still looking forward for a bigger bash, although plans kept on changing but the spirit of excitement lived throughout the week...on our way home we met an accident, none like it ever in history of CDO...it was there and then, i felt doomed, i thought i would die at that moment, worse?my only love of my life wasin the backseat..the pick-up that we were in swerved to eliviate a parked cab in the middle of a bride, instead of just missing the car we rammed into the steel railings of the bridge, flew into the air and crashed into the river..i was thinking, "damn if we'de die this way, what would her family say or become of this?i have so many plans for the both of us..please dont let it end now..." i then lost consciousness when we hit the river...the next thing i remember water was all around me, and im still inside the pick-up, i didnt think of anything else first but to get out because i was running out of air, i nudged and wiglled until i grabbed the door and opened it, swiftly swimming upward for air, and when i came out of the water the first thing i shouted was her name.."hopia!!!hopia!!!" then i shouted more for helped, crying and panicking and having an asthma attack at the same time..there and then....ithought i ahve lost her,i thought she was gone...my heart was breaking into pieces and i could here it shattering into pieces, i kept on shouting, thinking of her, everything about my hunny..then suddenly two men with salbabidas rescued me, i clinged on and cried and cried and kept on crying till i reached the riverbank...i still shouted her name, asking for help..and then suddenly she tapped me on my shoulder saying "hun lets go..im here.." i broke down even more in sheer delight and relief that she was ok, she was there...she was alive......

in memorial, i have never felt such pain, such helplessness, such desparation and sorrow, ultimate relief and joy...until that night...we were given a 2nd chance to love each other, maybe God was trying to tell me, or her, or the both of us something...for the Man upstairs...thank you so much for keeping me and my hunny hope alive...180 degree life changing moment ladies and gentlemen...goodnight....