in sickness and in health..

I've been around the block more than once in my life..i have loved and lost..been thru all that stereotypical broken family routine but i could still say that my life doesnt suck as much as it seems..i have many friends, i have a good job, i have this dysfunctional band that i cant seem to make a continuous flow with..(due to some people who refuse to cooperate, some people got pussy whipped..ASS!!!..)..but all in all theres this one thing, or one person who made my life a liiiiiiiiiiiittle bit more sweeter when i wake up, a bit more meaningful at the end of the day..HOPE....the name fits what she is in my life...

Before i thought i would end up with this one person, and again with another..but as soon as it ends, then i could see that we weren't meant to be..love seldom blinds you from the pain and the hurt that you soon forget that you are in the loosing end of the relationship..afterwards..or should i say in between i enjoyed my being single by being free from anything..but there was something missing...i didnt long for the people i lost, its the feeling of being cared for, being loved..i missed that..coz in the past relationships i had i was in search of that, in some i didnt feel any love at all..but you know what they say that you will never know where love's ugly face is gonna show up..and in my search..it was under my nose..literally..heres the scene...

Hope was my seatmate in my previous office, she was cool, smart and not to mention gorgeous (tinuod ni hun ha)..even my bestfriend agreed..well a lot of people agreed..anyway i used to talk to her about my past, about my current conquest, about lots of stuff..but i didnt imagine that id fall for her..coz she was involved with someone at that time and as far as i knew, they were in love..but as the times rolled by i found out that i was falling for her, and she for me..we could help it..it was too powerful..and when i had my chance i dove for it...but in my mind i thought "would this be another tragic love story?" i knew it could be but i didnt give that thought a chance to run more deeply in my mind, coz after the longest time, i am in love again...so deeply that it sometimes scares me..im in the age right now where foolin around and scamin and all that jazz aint that fun anymore..life isnt just all about that..night outs, drinkin and just throwing caution to the wind..and im with someone now that i know i could be in love with forever..why you ask?here are some facts...

1.) She is an excellent conversationalist - we work together in the same office, she is my Q.A. analyst, we have our work table situated side by side, we share the same sked on work, we take the same breaks, we eat, drink, smoke, walk, talk together..and still at the end of the day we burn hours talking over the fone..and that happens EVERYDAY..now thats what i call a communicating relationship..and i never get tired of it..never..

2.) She explains things to me - sometimes this mine of mine slows down and sometimes it tops, she jumpstarts me..she has this uncanny way of explaining things to me, especially when we are in an argument, and belive me we get into arguments..and everytime we do we dont shout or try to get into a pissing off contest..latelyt when we argue, we argue like were tlaking..AND I FREAKIN LOVE THAT...finally a mature realtionship..(after all these years!!whew)

3.) She is the sweetest thing... - do i have to explain this?hmmmm..lemme try..she's sweeter that sugar coated candy cane that's dipped in milk chocolate with sprinkles on top..still she's sweeter..

4.)She is GORGEOUS - i think im not gonna expound on this..you get the picture...hahaha

5.)She has the memory of a 1 GIG flash disk - she remembers it all! and when i say all i mean all..in detail, what color of my shirt that day, what color of the shirt ot the person next to me..and i never met someone with that memory..pretty neat..hehe and last but not the least..

6.)She's my tanan-tanan-ug uban pang utanon - whenever im ina crappy mood and i curse a lot and i basta in a crappy mood she calms me down...whenever im sad she picks me up, whenever im broke she makes me unbroke (belive me she saved my life a lot of times already..) even when she's the one thats sad, or mad, or broke..she has been there for me, thru whatever..and belive me whe have been thru a lot already..

I could go on and on about what Hope means to me, but the only important thing is that i love her, and she loves me..HAPPY VALENTINES HUNNY! labuuuuu.....